All those things you couldn't say, you should've said.

possessed_child @ 2004-08-07T12:55:00

2004-08-07T10:56:40Z

ok so this will most likely be my last entry in this journal

i just got a new username,

its

a_surreal_dream

so whoever still talks to me on lj add me as your firend

that will be all

possessed_child @ 2004-08-02T18:14:00

2004-08-02T16:16:31Z

PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love, always looking
for a relationship. You cannot live without it.
Your lover must be passionate and you want
that you and your partner melt into each other.
He/She should not try to take the domination .
You dont want a relationship without passion,
and the sexuality plays a big part. The first
moment you meet him/her is one of the most
important. There has to be something between
you , you cannot explain. From the first moment
on everything must fix. But when this passion
disappears you disappear to. For you it is
better to leave than to see your love
restrained. PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.

~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
brought to you by Quizilla

eventfull...

2004-07-28T07:17:40Z

hi
well last night seemed to be a highlight of my week, atleast for the beginning.
so after trying to go to baileys all day yesterday, and then my mom telling me to call lindsay and tell her to meet me somewhere, and finding out she was in hanau with her mom, i had pretty much given up on doing anything that day. so hour after i get home, lindsay calls, and she had just gotten back to her house. we plan to do something, i ended up taking a bus back to her town.

we go to billiards, or more or less i walk there, cause her and her friend are already there waiting for me, so i get there, we play pool, have a few drinks, we decide to move on to the next bar, which would be nazaro, we have shots of orgasms there, move on, go to irish pub, but leave there, because of the fear of getting seen by someone in the army, go back to billiards, have a few more drinks, then i start feeling a bit woozy, then lindsay and gabrielle, go talk to some soldiers and i go outside, we leave, gabrielles mom, flips out because shes a few minutes late, i think lindsay's getting in trouble, and im left with a hangover, and that is all...

i was bored

2004-07-27T08:30:09Z

i know i look stupid so you guys can make fun of me.

thats it....

life goes on...

2004-07-16T11:07:57Z

well havent posted in a while, but i dont think it really matters to anyone. but today should be fun, ill be going to hanau to hang out with nick today, go to the moveis and afterwards smoke the night away. quite the amusement. but i guess that is all to know for now.
goodbye...

fill it out, and doo it now!!!

2004-07-04T21:23:16Z

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

fun stuff...

2004-07-04T14:57:53Z

Deeply Suicidal Cutter
You cut because you REALLY REALLY need it. I'm
kinda worried about you actually. Next thing ya
know you're gonna be hanging yourself or taking
too many pills or turning the gas on and taking
lots of deep breaths or... Oh, crap, I'm just
giving you ideas now aren't I?
Good Ssong For You- Majandra Delfino- Bruises
Good Movie- Ginger Snaps

What kind of cutter are you?
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no one to talk to, no one to see, and nothing to do

2004-07-02T11:14:13Z

well its done, everyone i know is gone. no one remains in hanau germany that i know, they have all left to the states, its really depressing. good god, oh well, i dont know too much to do anymore, seems choices of things to do are running out very fast. one by one everyone has left, and seems the reast of the summer will be spent alone. for the most part time. or atleast for the reas of this month and some of next. let me tell you, "greatest summer of my life"....

whatever, i have nothing else to say

goodbye...

possessed_child @ 2004-06-30T22:33:00

2004-06-30T20:33:41Z

What Would You Do If...
I cried:
I asked you to help:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
I got dumped:
I pissed you off:
I did something that you could never forgive me for:

What Do You Think Of My...
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Mannerisms:
Family:
Body:
Friends:
Decisions:

Would You...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Have Sex with me:
Ditch me:
Use me:
Date me:
Rape me:
Beat me up:

possessed_child @ 2004-06-29T16:07:00

2004-06-29T14:10:27Z

You are 'I miss you'! Awwwww....It's only been 10
days! Wasting away, you say?

Which Incubus song are you? (Make Yourself)
brought to you by Quizilla

well, i just did that for fun, nothing much to it, but whatever, hmm, well life has been pretty dull, lindsay left yesterday, fun stuff, quite depressing, i have no one ot call, and have listen to the stupid shit i say, but whatever i miss you lindsay, hurry and get back.

this thursday should be intresting, me and matt, and nick if he ends up coming will be going ot billiards in büdigen, play pool, and drink, fun stuff, it will be quite amusing.

other than that i guess nothing else has been happening, just boredom, and the accasional going outside to smoke a cigarette, well thats all for now
farewell

possessed_child @ 2004-06-21T05:42:00

2004-06-21T03:48:00Z

so today, or more like yesterday, was awesome,
last night me, matt and nick went to a punk bar, it was the greatest man, the outside is all spray painted with graffity, and shit, then the inside is totally punk style, we drank some beer, smoked some hash, in the bar, they actually let us, hours passed of conversation, and eventually it got really hot for me, and i ended up puking in the bathroom, it was fun

we left, the outside did me good, i though i would have puked on the bus aswell, but i was able to manage not to, so then we walked the rest of the way because of me maybe puking in the bus, sat down in matts house and watched aquateen hunger force, awesome show, then talked to people online, it was great, and i got to talk to cilla wich was cool, and matt now is in bed, he went to sleep at like 2 i think or 1, something like that and at the moment its 5:46 a.m. so damn, ive stayed up all night, oh well, i guess i need to go catch some sleep, but ok well thats my day, it was well done, good times.

doesn't feel like it... time's going way to fast...

2004-06-18T08:54:09Z

well summer's begun as i already mentioned, and yet it really fels like it's just a long weekend, waiting to end, and seeming to wait for school to be on the next day, many friends are departing for the states, one of my best friends left wednseday, and is never coming back, lindsay leaves for the states next sunday :'( but she'll be back, and then she'll leave after another 3 weeks for good, (i still do love her though even if it doesn't seem like it, alot) matt may be leaving in august, very shity, i wont have anyoe to hang out with anymre, moving's a very shit thing, i mean, you meat new people, but then after you become the best of friends with them its always time to say goodbye...

well, i'll try to enjoy this summer as much as possible, much time will be spent with lindsay before she leaves, even though it'll just be harder when she leaves, but i dont want her to leave, she will be missed alot, good times will be spent with matt, as they are always good times, we talk here and there about life and the things instore for us, and things that are yet to happen and things we want to do,and maybe sometimes jesse will be there as well, which wil be cool, for nick, we will have to find a day that he isn't busy working and hang out and converse and what not, when bailey comes back, we will hang out for the day or 2 that she will be back, and then await her return in august...

i guess i have this summer planned out alittle, but it seems like its just flying past me, and people say time flies when you're having fun, im not sayinf im not having fun doing the things i am, but its not as much fun as last summer so far, and time's flying by way too fast...

for those that in the states, lauren have fun with lindsay, show her a good time, and enjoy your summer, say hi to mac for me, and it was good talking to you yesterday, we will have to meet up again sometime in the near future, like you said maybe when we're 18, (next summer) and then travel to amsterdam, or just hang out, cilla, i miss you alot, i haven't heard too much from you, you should give me a call, or e-mail me sometime, or somethingm you're also one of those friends that i hope to meet up with again later in life.

now, for the last person, i know you guys think im way too oppsessed with her, but yes, i just want to say something to her, (even though she's not gone yet), Lindsay, i know that you're not to happy with me right now, and if not, you didn't seem like you were last night, and im sorry, but yess, i really hope to have alot of fun with you for the time that you're still here, and hang out as much as possible, if i dont get too annoying, (lol) the time spent with you was a blast, even though sometimes we wouildnt be able to stand the sight of eachother or the sound, but i really enjoyed every bit of it, though we could've skipped the fighting, but hey that's life for you, so i guess what i' trying ot get out is that you have bween one of the best friends i've ever had, and that everytime i spend time with you i have fun in one way or another, and that you leaving will have a great impact on my life, (that goes for the rest of you too) i wont have anyone to call everyday and to listen to me whine about things, or just to talk to, or to ask to go places with me, eating lots and lots of food, or just being able to be in your presence. but yes i hope to see you again, and i will do everything to visit you and everyone else, but yeah, well i just wanted you to know, even though you're moving you will always be in my thoughts and memories, and i will miss you alot, and i do still love you alot, and care for you as for everyone else, and you will always have a special place in my heart.

well i guess that's it for now, i just had that stuff in my head, and felt that it had to be gotten out, so yes, just want you to know that you guys mean alot to me, but ok.

farewell for now.

cant believe it's summer

2004-06-15T12:01:36Z

well summer has begun and not much has changed, besides that i dont go to school, which is a good thing, but yeah, all my friends are departing ot the states for the summer and im left her to rot away in my small shity town, well there's still matt and nick, and thats good, maybe ill be able to do something with them, but the fact fo the matter is that i cant go see them everyday, but whatever, im left alone, but i guess i cant let that ruin everything, so whatever, well thats its for now, so farewell to all

possessed_child @ 2004-06-11T08:54:00

2004-06-11T07:57:23Z

well then...

yesterday was one of the coolest days ive had in awhile, we went to go visit bailey, since shes going to the states this sunday, thought we'd hang out, and it was great, every little thing was cool, should do it again sometime, but oh well

today im stuck doing work again, as always, but atleast im rid of my mom for 2 hours, woo hoo, shes going to work, but oh well, i guess thats it for now, so farwell to all

it was awesome!!!!!

2004-06-09T19:30:41Z

hello there people, hows it going,
me im doing pretty damn good, i went to the concert yesterday, it was lost prophets, slipknot, and then metallica, it kicked ass, and the mosh pit that was going on when slipknot was playing was the best, i got elbowed in the head once, and the left pant leg of my jeans got ripped, but whatever, it was really great, i loved it, and right now, im hiiiigh, hehehe, oh wlel, thats been whats going on in my life, very cool huh, oh oh oh, and the greatest new in the world right now, i...have...no..................(here its comes).............(little further).............(almost there)................SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!

oh yes, it feels so good to be free, man three months of no school and being able to finally sleep in, the only thing that gets me down about this, o dont get to see any of my friends, they're all going to the states, yes its very depressing, but yea, oh well, thats my update, farwell

possessed_child @ 2004-05-19T19:22:00

2004-05-19T17:25:34Z

well nothing new has been happening, buuut
hey i get to go to a slipknot concert on the 8th of june
yay
i guess thatas the hightlight of this month, but anyway, whatever, just incase wanted anyone cares, well later

possessed_child @ 2004-05-18T21:31:00

2004-05-18T19:39:26Z

THE RULES!
1 -- Leave a comment, saying you want to be interviewed.
2 -- I will respond; I'll ask you five questions.
3 -- You'll update your journal with my five questions, and your five answers.
4 -- You'll include this explanation.
5 -- You'll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed.

here are the answers to the 5 questions i was asked.

What's your worst fear? my worst, would probably be loosing anyone of my friends, like if they'd die, or if our friendship was just broken

What's your biggest regret? i cant realyl say i have any regrets, i guess the worst would be being an asshole to my friends sometimes

What do you find most attractive in the opposite sex? eyes, lips, hair, and their personality, also they have to be smart. eyes i think are like really magnetic, most of the time i cant stop looking in the eyes of this one girl, until she looks back, lips, i love lips, their so pretty, and soft, and for that first kiss, its always a thrill, hair, i love hair, i guess i have that to thank to the same girl i was reffering to for the eyes, and the rest is a need.

If you could go to any place (past present or future) where would you go? id stay in the present, i dont know i enjoy my life right now, and i like it

Do you want to go buy chucks next week? yes, my other ones are really screwed up

it was so much fun

2004-05-15T06:40:23Z

man last night was the best, i think im still feeling kinda dizzy form it, but thats ok, it was soo great, and we were so fucked up, man the feeling was so great, all actions were too fast to keep up with and then all movement seemed so slow
and like later on that night we went to go get chinese food and they started fucking with us by speaking chinese, oh man it was briliant
i will definantely do it again sometime, but it was the best time that i have had in a while
and now im all cramped too, well there are only 2 particular parts on my body that seemed to be cramped, i dont know why but my neck and then my side, wierd, well, that was my night, great time

possessed_child @ 2004-05-11T21:04:00

2004-05-11T19:21:14Z

Using band names, spell out your name:

Murderdolls
Incubus
Chimara
Helloween
Adema
Endo
Led Zepplin

Tool
Hoobastank
Orgy
Moldy Peaches
Atreyu
Slipknot

Evanescence
Mudvayne
Alien Ant Farm
Nirvana
Used, The
Smashing Pumpkins

possessed_child @ 2004-05-11T07:49:00

2004-05-11T05:53:14Z

bored and i think im getting sick, its very sad
last night when i went to bed i opened my window and later that morning i looked out of my window and it was very foggy, i couldnt even see the tree outside my windo anymore, and i was very cold, and now i think im getting sick, oh well, going to class now

possessed_child @ 2004-05-10T11:08:00

2004-05-10T09:11:34Z

well today has been interesting, i hope the week will turn out better, today has been ok i guess, besides the morining, but whatever, yesterday i have really happy, i was high, and like i couldnt stop smiling, after a couple minutes i tried to stop smiling and like my cheeks wouldnt go down, so i couldnt stop, but whatever, just thought id let someone know, but hmm, what else well we're about to switch class's so i guess ill write in here during lunch or something, but whatever, oh peoples, i think im rid of my worm on the computer so im able to get online again, wooo hooo!!!!!!!!!

later

bleh..

2004-05-08T14:57:08Z

man this week has kida just sucked, but oh well, for the past 2 days it has been raining and it sucks ass, well my computer still has that annoying worm on it and i dont knw how to get rid of it, i have managed to get onto live journal without it doing anything, so hey now i can actually check something, even though i really shouldnt, cause my neighbor said itll fuck my computer up, man i hate that stupid kid who made this worm, i wish i could see him so i could kick his ass, but whatever, well i dont really know what else to say,oh and today i worked and made about, umm, i think around 35 or 37 dollars, oh well, i hope next week will be better, and again lauren and cilla, if you can call that would be very cool, but yeah, ok well i guess ill talk to you guys whenever i get my computer fixed, or on monday when i get online at school, well later peoples,

HI LINDSAY call me whenever you want to, if you want to

later

possessed_child @ 2004-05-06T14:47:00

2004-05-06T12:49:59Z

well this week has been interesting, yesterday i finally got my pipe, very cool, and matt might be giving me some "stuff" THANK YOU MATT, well today im going to hang out with him for a while and then go back home and probably go to sleep, or listen to my mom bitch about my computer, she constantly blames me for that shit, but it was funny cause i kinda turned the issue around on her last night, and she got kinda quiet, oh well bells about to ring so later people, oh and cilla and lauren call meeee, i want you to
later

ooo i wonder wonder wonder wonder ooo whats in my wonderball

2004-05-03T11:58:13Z

Post a memory of me in the comments. It can be anything you want.
Then - post this to your journal and see what people remember about you.
It could be any type of memory, Good or bad.

possessed_child @ 2004-05-03T07:47:00

2004-05-03T05:47:48Z

its my birthday today, wooo hooo, im 17, ooooh yeah XP